random things that annoy me

I feel like I have to write. I don’t know what to write actually, but I do feel I have to.

I have lots and lots and loooooots in my mind lately that I cannot tell you, nor I can explain it to myself what’s been going on with me. I feel like everything moves so fast that sometimes it confused me. sometimes I feel like something is wrong, then it’s right, then it’s wrong again, then it’s right again, and so on and on and on and on… there’s just too many ups and downs in my life.

what I need right now is a peaceful mind. I am so lack of a peaceful mind.  everyday,there’s always something bad I think about and finally it only worries me. I ask myself to stop but I can’t. it’s just my very bad habit. and because of think too much about something, sometimes I tend to be too overreacting or we usually call it as ‘lebay’.

and this PMS (not Penyakit Menular Seksual, darling, but Pre Menstruation Syndrome), totally pissed me off! I don’t know how to get rid of this anger I feel everytime it comes to my period. I feel very, very, very sensitive. and I disgust myself everytime I become so sensitive and explosive and start angry and raging and yelling at everyone who annoys me just a little bit. and sometimes I cry to myself without any good reason. INSANE, HUH??

I know now why men feels annoyed with PMS a girl has. cos it totally annoys me too. plus, with this stomachache which kills me, totally suck up my day.

oh and I want to let you know that I AM SO ENOUGH WITH TESTS AND TRYOUTS AND PAPERS AND QUESTIONS AND LESSONS AND SCHOOL. there, I said it. I feel like I’m on the edge of my limit with school things. I feel like my head is going to explode soon enough. and I’m not ready with UAN. but I want to graduate from high school as fast as I can. and if possible, without doing UAN.

it’s not a really good posting, I know, cos it’s all just about my personal emotion inside. I’m so lack of a good mood to write. maybe after my period I’m gonna get my writing-mood back.

ndhee